i..was just thinking about a few things that happened in the past, really. like, i'm not a nice person to most people, i'll admit. but, the people i am nice to, and that's very few, they take the shit i do for them for granted, but i'm not saying all!, the majority of the friends i have atm have been amazing, but for that select few, they just take my shit, enjoy it for the time being, then shove it back at me. how many times have bought you food when you didn't have enough money? how many times have i taken you places no one would dare take you again? fucking got in to trouble lying for you? fighting your battles? cursing bitches out that cursed you out; knowing it was none of my business in the first place? i don't understand why people can be so..like, how can you do that and live with yourself? i mean, i don't fucking care. i was just thinking, y'know? and honestly, there's only one person i know that is my age that is a real person; who will tell the truth, not afraid to tell it, not afraid to do what they feel, like just completely and utterly real. and the best moments of my life have been spent with that person. and i still love her more than any friend i've ever had in my 15 years of living. although our friendship is not as strong as it used to, like, i know both of us will always know that we used to be tight and we'll never regret or deny it to anyone. i love that girl so much, like a sister. no friend will equal to her. i'm not lying when i say this. pheww, i think i've got everything out of my head now. (: